Daymare o_O

Before I say anything else...I'm BA-ACK! =D Camp was great and I had tons of fun.=P I'll blog more about that another time. For now, I want to talk about my weird, weird daymare, cause it's not nighttime yet (only 6.30 pm) and technically it can't be a nightmare, but anyway.

I was really tired after camp, what with only 8 hours of sleep every night, as compared to my customary 12 hours. So today after coming home from shopping today I collapsed on the couch and went to sleep.

There was an article in Reader's Digest a couple months ago about lucid dreaming, which unknowingly, I've been doing all the time. It's a state of mind where you are conscious in your sleep. I like to call it the twilight zone.=D When you are drifting between wakefulness and sleep, you can pick what you're going to dream about. Amazing isn't it? I didn't know what was it called then, but I've been doing this since I was young to ward off nightmares.

It didn't work for me today.

When I'm in the 'twilight zone' I can't move, unless I will myself very hard to, then I jerk into complete conciousness. In the twilight zone can hear my surroundings, feel the bed I'm sleeping on, but I can't really control my body, yet I can think. It's complicated. Today, as I was picking a topic to dream about, someone started whispering in my ear. To my utmost horror, it was the little girl I used to dream, or rather, have nightmares about.

So I opened my eyes, which was supposed to wake me up completely. I saw my mom sleeping on the couch across of me, and I heard the lawnmower roaring it's way across the lawn. The terrible thing was, I could hear the girl whispering in my ear all this while. I couldn't make her go away. I felt something pressing down on me and I tried to sit up, then I started drifting in and out of conciousness. One second I could hear the lawnmower and see my mom, the next second I could only see the girl and hear her whispering in my ear. Creepy.

I never realised that if I could take reality into my dreams, I could probably turn my dreams, or nightmares into reality too. The brain is a complicated thing.

Gotta go now, I'll finish this blog post later. Pray for my safety for now. =O

Update: I'm back! =D

Anyway, I see Yap's back from goodness-knows-where and has already commented, so nyeh to her. =Þ And Yap, there's a scientific explanation for that. Apparently, that happens when your brain is partially awake but your nerves haven't been stimulated yet. :o) (Don't ask me where I got all these info)

Back to the story. Some history about this little girl. As I don't really believe in spirits, I'll just say that she's a fictional character made up by my brain with some help from my previous maid and the movie The Ring. This little girl is also the source of my brief period of paranoia a couple years back, when I was convinced my house was haunted. I couldn't sleep at night because I heard her whispering and someone breathing next to me. Scary huh? The thing is, those weren't dreams. I was completely awake when I experienced those things. I could probably say that was the scariest time of my life. I'd practically pee in my pants when I hear something behind me and couldn't find the cause of it. (Hey I was 12 then, ok?)

ANYWAY, I've found scientific explanations for all those things. The whisperings in my ear and the girl from the corner of my eye was my overactive imagination stimulated by fear. The roaring and breathing in my ear was the sudden rush my blood to head, also stimulated by fear. As for the bumps and creaks at night? That would be the wooden furniture contracting. Since then I haven't been afraid anymore. You could say science saved me from having a mental breakdown. Then you would understand why I have so little faith in anything spiritual and believe a lot in science.

I DO believe in God, though I don't believe in religion. Freethinker, as people say. Not an atheist, as many people tend to confuse that with a freethinker. But as science progresses, you can find so many more explanations to the miracles in life, which is just...sad. Nothing is as interesting anymore. Give or take a couple more decades, and science can probably take away (explain) the miracles in life. Depressing.

But it's still disturbing to think that the little girl is back. I'm still scared shitless of her, I'll admit. I don't know why, but she just freaks me out. Maybe I'll just use what little faith I have and believe that she won't disturb me anymore.

Or maybe I'll just put it down to long-term supressed trauma and check myself into a mental institute.

GTA

Grand Theft Auto: Great game? Possibly. =D



=O Yesterday my friends came over to stay,so that the next day we could all go watch HP4 together. (And no, I'm not gonna blog about HP4 so you readers are safe from spoilers ;o) Anyway, Jun Yan brought over the game I've been wanting to play for a looong time, Grand Theft Auto (not SA) =D It's very fun...especially when you take head shots! :O You have NO idea how much fun it is to watch people's head pop off and watch their blood shooting out of their head like fountains. *cackles*


 
Anyway, it's a kinda sick game with lots of swear words, so you should keep this game away from little kiddos. I heard you could rape girls in the San Andreas version, but luckily they didn't bring that over. :K I would be very embarassed if I was caught watching that particular scene, and the guys would think I'm a lesbian or something. Heehee! As if it wasn't enough with the guy's singing My Humps the whole day, though they cracked me up, it's hilarious! (Guy's cue: Whatcha gonna do with all that junk, all that junk inside your trunk? My cue: I'ma getgetget you drunk, get you love drunk off my humps) Nice song though. Guys, you should buy me some icies and then you can sing: She's got me spen-din'... =P



Anyway, GTA is a fun game, especially if you're a very sick and destructive person.



Rohan: *laughs hysterically* Look at that guys leg! It flew right across the street! *laughs some more*
Brandon: Man, you're sick la. *covers eyes*



Anyway, right after that, Brandon took back control of the weapons and proceeded to murder some more passersby without so much as batting an eyelid. So much for empathy, huh?



The bazooka is a cun-ted weapon, especially for blowing up helicopters. =D The sniper is great if you can get yourself up to a high spot. Byebye, innocent people. *malicious laughter* My favourite weapon is the gun thingy, I'm not sure what the name is, but you sure can take out a whole row of bystanders with one spread shot. Then sit back and watch the blood splatter like fireworks. Muhahahaha. The only downside is that it only has 60 rounds of ammo, then you have to stop to reload, and this could pretty much cost your life. =P



Jun Yan: Nice view!
*person walks by*
Jun Yan: Eh, you blocking my view.
*SPLAT! Person's head flies off and blood starts gushing out like a waterfall*
I couldn't help laughing, even though I knew it was sick and twisted. (Haven't I always been sick and twisted anyway?)



Anyway, get this game if you want a few laughs. If you can't stand the sight of blood? Don't even think or dream about it.



Stephanie's last words before being packed off to camp: *takes gun and fires* DIE PEOPLE DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!! *insert cue: pretend you're dead now, or I will run you over with the police car whose owners I had murdered and you'll die anyway.* STILL not dead yet? Fine, flamethrower time! Woohoo! Barbecued humans for dinner? YAY! It's finger lickin' good! =D

You call that a blog? *harsh laugh* Pathetic.

Recently, I have come across several blogs, which are pathetic little things you would want to turn your back, run away and never visit that page again.
For they have crossed the line on the 10 sacred blogging taboos *gasp* (Wait, how can taboos be sacred? Anyway...) So here they are, Stephanie's 10 blogging taboos.


Taboo #1: Ch4t5p34k

Who the hell do you think wants to read your chatspeak? Lyke c3r741nly I D0n'7!!!shiftone11!! Chat speak may have been cool 5 years ago, but definitely isn't now. Or maybe now being uncool is the new in thing, and you guys are trying to be uncool to be cool....(?) But anyway, if you type in chatspeak, you can be sure that people like myself will never visit your page again.




Taboo #2: Multicoloured Text

This is a big no-no. Text like this makes people want scream in frustration when they try to decipher your text. You want to 'express your creativity'? Take a box of crayons and sit in the corner with a drawing pad, like the baby you are.


Taboo#3: Invisible text <------Triple click here

Do you think you readers are going to spend their time triple-clicking or pressing Ctrl+A to read your blog? Maybe some tolerant viewers will, but you can count me out as one of them. LOSERS!!! Hahaha.


Taboo#4: Using too many short forms

For me, this is highly irritating. In fact I get vv mad whn i rd this. Last ngt, I almst blew my top ovr this. Leaving out vowels just proves what a bad speller/typist you are.


Taboo#5: Posting nothing but pictures

There's a photo album for this reason you know? And without putting captions, how the hell are we supposed to know what you're trying to tell us? I may be *coughcoughcough*super-smart*hack* but I'm definitely not psychic. My pokemon may be, (*hugs Ralts*) but you can't count on everyone having Ralts with them, can you?


Taboo#6: Posting up lyrics and nothing else (also known OMG! I LOVE THIS SONG! syndrome)

OMGOMGOMG THIS SO LYKE SO TTL RAWKS MY SOX!!!! <insert copy-and-paste lyrics of song here>
It's irritating, ok? I know you love that song, but this is a blog, not letssingit.com.


Taboo#7: CAPITALIZATION

IF YOU IDIOTS DIDN'T KNOW, ON THE INTERNET, CAPITAL LETTERS ARE THE EQUIVALENT OF YELLING. SO KEEP YOUR RUDENESS TO YOURSELF, THANK YOU VERY MUCH!


Taboo#8: PRe-SCHooL CHaTSPeaK

THiS iS WHeRe PeoPLe CaPiTaLiZe THe CoNsoNaNTS oR ViCe VeRSa. iRRiTaTiNG HuH? O_o GeeZ, I DoN'T KNoW HoW You GuYS CaN TYPe LiKe THiS, I'M eXHauSTeD aLReaDY.


Taboo#9: Ignoring Punctuation

This is so stupid since no one can tell where your sentence starts and where it ends its kinda like those mensa puzzles where you try to divide all sentences equally and have them make sense as well only this time its for complete cretins dont you think so i do and i dont care if you dont it annoys me very much


Taboo#10: The last but not least...THe sUPeR  cOMbo

This is a bloggers worst nightmare. A combo of all the above sins.  I don't even want to talk about it.

aND So I coNCLude My SPeEch tHANks v much aND gNitE YOU IMBECILES

If you can read this, you've probably commited one these sins as well. -smacks- Now you have to promise me to blog nicely or I'll boycott your page forever! Muahahahaha.......

=The end, thank you=

Your favourite antagonist,
Stephanie
P.s. On blogging hiatus until 27th November, so ta-ta people. Even if you miss me (as if) I certainly won't miss you!! -evil cackle-